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From being over medicated and wrongly prescribed from the word go…I find myself having to somehow get free of three medications I never needed or wanted.
By somehow I mean that I have been harmed by these medications making it very hard to come off them. But I have faith and I am documenting my journey.
Currently on..
Quetiapine from a huge 400 mg to 2mg, gearing up to be off this soon. Its taken me 2.5 years to get to this amount.
Lorazepam I am currently on 0.125mg from 0.5, currently it’s equivalent of 1mg valium ( and yes this is still having an effect ) I am holding at this dose while I focus on the quetiapine.
Mirtazipine 25mg down from 30mg I am holding this while I focus on the quetiapine.
Always doing this one by one, never two at once. So I can work out what’s causing what and to not overwhelm my already tender nervous system.
For those reading thinking how can these small doses have an effect, trust me I am experiencing this, as are many, they have great effect at small doses, some say it is in fact the last bits that can be the most challenging, however that is different for everyone. It’s easy to think that surely I can just stop taking it now, I am taking quite literally, a crumb! For many harmed like me or even not classed as harmed but simply trying to come off it, it can take going down to the smallest of doses to get off it. It’s actually very common have to taper to this degree to be free of it. A great site.. ‘surviving antidepressants’ shows many stories on there and shows many tapering off their medications, and really getting to these tiny doses before they jump off.
What happens if you jump to early is a rebound effect, not everyone gets this but I think you will know if you could be one of those people due to the torture of the tapering itself and the side effects you experience as you go down. Even so some taper just fine, they jump off too quick and find themselves in hell once off the medication, which is commonly seen by Drs is that your going crazy and in fact need the medication, when really your body has become dependent on it to exist. The rebound effect is a withdrawal and the pill causing a back lash in your nervous system which can send you into a very bad place. This isn’t always just mental anguish, it can be bodily torture throughout. Hard to explain in fact I’ll just describe it as… unexplainable sensations!
m determined to be rid of these meds, not only is it unsettling being on something that without it you’d be in hell, like what you think hell might be like… you go there! It is hard getting these medication for such a long time, it’s like an entrapment! Getting the same brand or manufacturer, your Dr may retire, all sorts can happen and your so dependent on the stuff!
This is my experience, and I know it is one of many. I choose to share my journey to help others feel less alone and get free of this toxic stuff as well.
With love E x
